tasty tasty death

This may just be one of the most unique advertising strategies I've ever seen. It is disturbing, funny and (I think) effective. Considering I don't even like Cadbury Creme Eggs and I want one. Prepare for shock and awe. You really have to watch the whole thing until the last one. You will know the finale when you see it. I gasped, totally shocked at what I was seeing.

Welcome to the world of my disturbing sense of humour.

Watch it now. (about 2.5 minutes in total).

things not to do in MPD

stand up a supporter. (especially when you're supposed to go to their place for dinner).
When you book an appointment with someone, make sure that if you cannot any longer attend that you ACTUALLY cancel the appointment instead of thinking you've canceled it. Coming home to a message on your answering machine that states "We made an appointment with you last week and I've made dinner and I'm wondering where you are" is KIND OF TOTALLY BAD. And then having to call and redeem yourself is also totally awkward and difficult. Thank goodness for fridges and they can be eating lots of leftovers??? ok i'm totally trying to make myself feel better here.

So when I called to apologize, the wife said in this sweet voice, "Oh well there is only one person who was perfect and they crucified him."

That's either totally gracious or a hidden threat haha.

I choose to ooze with enthuuuusiasm

Yesterday was reminiscent of when I was sick. Things seemed less bright and hopeful. Today when I woke up one of my first thoughts was, "Ugh. Kathy calls at 12:30. I should make some calls before she calls me. Ugh. I hate calling. When will this be over?!"

I got up out of bed with this bad attitude in my heart. I didn't like how it felt. I thought I had grown out of that in the last couple weeks. It was like pants that fit too tight and give you a muffin top... so unfortunate. I was quickly reminded of prayer. "Lord, I don't want to have this attitude. Help me to see this as an opportunity. Help me rejoice in the calls that I have to make today and help me to make the choice to be happy about my circumstances."

Immediately, I felt hopeful and almost excited to make the scary calls this morning. I used to enjoy clinging to my bad attitudes and hard heart. I think this might be changing. Maybe that's partly what this epicly long MPD business is all about: beating my bad attitudes out of me by forcing me to face them day after day after day after day after day until I don't like them anymore and want to put them to DEATH.

And maybe, just maybe, it's finally working.

Bible Study Magazine

I just found this. Logos Bible software is now making a magazine called Bible Study Magazine. Right now a yearly subscription is DIRRRRT cheap at $14.95 (+ $9.95 shipping & handling). I'm not sure how long the discount is on for so if you're interested, do it now. It's a 48 page magazine that covers topics from:
- D.I.Y. Bible Study: Learn how to effectively use Bible study tools with our how-to guides.
- Greek Word Study: without Greek Contextual insights about specific words in four easy steps.
- What They Don't Tell You in Church: Challenging facts about the Bible in the ancient world.
- Feature Stories Great interviews and articles with the biggest names in the church and biblical scholarship help you connect the Bible to your ministry and life.

Hmm.... I should work on commission.

Also, there's a promotional give-away happening. You can win one of: a copy of Driscoll's Vintage Church, a subscription to the magazine or a copy of Logos Bible Software. Check it out here.

1-2-3-4-5-6 switch

I haven't been bored in over 2 months. "That's good!" you're thinking. No, actually, not really. I haven't been bored because I haven't wanted to do anything. If I've accomplished anything it's because I've forced myself to or someone else has forced me to do it.

But today, I was bored. I didn't have a lot of calling to do. I've been tearing through Min Prep books. I got bored. I was tired, had a nap, made cookies. I'm about to do some more calling but seriously? BOREDOM. There's only so much reading a person can do in the day. I finally feel motivated to do things, and have nothing to do. Seriously. Earlier I was going to avoid calling, but now I'm so bored I'm actually going to call. CALLING OUT OF BOREDOM IS A BAD SIGN. haha i'm going to go crazy before I reach Montreal I fear. Craziness from the country/small town. Mark my words.

Ok I'm going to go call. Then runnnnnn on the treadmill. run run run my boredom away. Maybe this will work out in my favour after all.

hope is rising

There is a spring in my step, a smile in my heart. While most of the world is out spending time with their date, I'm in my living room while my dad watches the hockey game. I think this is the first v-day that I haven't been super cynical or throbbing with discontent about my singleness. I'm fine. I'm happy! And considering the last few months, I'm grateful for that. A girl has gotta be thankful for any crumbs that fall off the Master's table.

'f'-ing like crazy

I'm back at it. Getting into the swing of things again. I don't think I will ever really enjoy MPD, I have to admit. But I'm starting to see my insecurities and weaknesses in it and I know it will make me a way better person. In the past few weeks I have seriously questioned whether I'm cut out for it or not and I concluded that I am not. I can do a lot of things but this I can't.

So I'm going to let you in on a little secret: I fake things. A lot. I don't mean I lie or plagiarize, I just mean that I fake confidence when inside I'm freaking out. I make it look like on the outside I have confidence but really inside I'm repeating "Help me Jesus! Help me Jesus!" Tonight when I try and make phone calls I will be trying to fake even to myself that I can do this, that I'm capable (or at least that Christ in me is).

I can tell you that it's good practice, cause when I get to campus I'm going to be faking it allllllll the time cause I feel neither confident nor qualified like I did before.

Thats me, fake-y-fakerrr

again i say rejoice

A few times in the last month I have looked at my life and thought, "Lord, where is your mercy?" I have seen how MPD has dragged on insufferably and most days seem like a struggle to accomplish anything worthwhile. Each time I have thought these things I have felt my heart harden a bit.

Like last fall when I was struck by McCain's concession speech, today God stirred my heart to conviction. All of a sudden I felt convicted of a heart attitude of pride. Who was I that I felt I deserved God's mercy? What brought me to feel like He owed it to me that this season of perseverance would end?

I felt both my heart and my spirit soften today as I acknowledged God's headship in my life and chose to willingly submit to His will for me recognizing that every gift from God is good and should be received with thanksgiving.

ok hi! is this real life?

Here are some things I've been enjoying in the last month:

• Boxxy. I just can't get enough. Aside from her being really ridiculous, there's this huge backstory as to why her videos became viral. Trust me, in my own insanity I've spent a few hours reading about it. it's nuts.
• Google Latitude (It seems both cool and totally creepy)
• Fiction Family (Jon Foreman's new music project)
• Trial (Driscoll's newest sermon series. I've really benefited from it).

Aaand because I love bacon so much, here is a tip on how maximize your bacon consumption over a long period of time (without it going bad).... although it isn't a commentary on how to avoid heart disease :(

also this is hilarious. i can attest that morphine brings about similar feelings.